This is the hardest post I’ve ever sat down to write. There is just no easy way of getting this out of my head and on to the screen.
After over five wonderful and happy years Tom and I have decided to part ways.
Just writing that sentence makes my feel really strange. The past couple of weeks have been incredibly difficult and I have learnt that it is important to let yourself cry and that it is okay to feel good one minute and then lonely and confused the next. I don’t want to share the intimate details of what happened because they are between Tom and I but I will say that it was a mutual decision. We are not angry with each other, in fact we still care for each other a great deal. It was just time to move on.
Right now it’s hard to picture my life without him, he really has been my other half. But despite the pain I feel now I don’t regret a single day of those five years, they hold some of the most special moments of my life and I will always treasure those memories.
I thought long and hard on what to call this post but I finally settled on ‘In the End’, one of Tom’s favourite songs by his favourite band. He taught me so much and made me very happy for a long time, and I hope that one day, when time has healed all our wounds, we can be friends again.
There is no easy way to get over someone, especially your first love, but even as each day feels a bit strange right now I know that eventually things will be easier and I’ll be myself again. I hope you can all understand that I needed some time away from the internet to put my head in order and deal with the emotions swirling through me, I may be a little sporadic with my blogging but I promise I haven’t disappeared altogether! Things may be a bit tough right now but I do have some really positive things happening in my life right now and I have lots to tell you all.
Hope you’re all well!