Sometimes, when people find out I have a chronic condition, they ask endless questions (not that I mind) and often the response I get is “How do you deal with all of that? I think I’d just want to die!”
In many ways it’s not really a very helpful response although part of me is grateful to them for realising just how much it can be a struggle. However, I always answer in the same way.
You just have to suck it up and deal with it.
Life won’t just sort itself out.
It’s down to you.
I know that sounds tough, and goodness knows it rarely feels that simple. But the fact is that millions of people deal with illness, injuries and disability everyday of their lives and if everyone went around complaining or just gave in, the world would be a sorry place.
I’m not going to lie, sometimes (especially recently) I just want to curl up into a ball and cry, I just want to give up, to take time away from everything, to slip into a state of numbness. But you can’t, that isn’t how life works. You have to be strong for other people, and for yourself.
You never know what is going to happen, sometimes life throws things at you which quite frankly suck. I should know 😉 What I’ve come to learn though, is it’s much less about what happens to you and much more about how you deal with it, it’s about not giving up.
Lately, I’ve not been feeling very well. You may have noticed that I’ve been fairly absent from the blogworld, I’m behind on writing posts and I haven’t been commenting on all of your fabulous blogs as often as usual. My energy levels have been incredibly low, it takes all of my effort to go into town for a few hours and I wake up in the morning feeling as tired as when I went to sleep in the first place.
Obviously feeling like this has in turn left me feeling quite down. It’s hard to stay positive when it feels like you’re struggling with everyday tasks and exams are approaching.
But I don’t want to let myself sink into a pool of negativity, when I start feeling down like this I know I have to pick myself back up because it would be so easy to end up feeling far worse by lack of productivity and distraction.
So I’m making the active decision to make myself better.
I’m clearly not talking about my actual physical issues here. Other than doing my physio everyday there isn’t much I can do there to improve things, I’ll leave that to the professionals. But I can do a lot to improve how I feel and to improve the way I deal with my condition.
Starting today I am going to do several things, each and everyday.
- Productivity. I am going to make sure I do something everyday, being productive makes me feel more positive.
- Activity. I am going to do something active everyday – whether it is just a little walk, a bike ride or a strength workout, doing something physical always helps my energy levels (as long as I don’t overdo it obviously!).
- Eat well. Pretty self-explanatory. I have been eating pretty well lately, a good balance of healthy and delicious which always helps me feel better.
- Read and write. Although I’ve been working a lot, I’ve actually managed to find the time to read for pleasure and it’s a great way of distracting myself when the pain becomes too much. I also bought myself a new moleskin journal and I want to start journaling again because I like using the time to reflect.
Hopefully these four little goals will help me build my positivity back up!
I also want to get back into blogging and everything this wonderful community involves again. I’ve missed it, despite just feeling a bit too rubbish and I’m going to make a big effort to post more 🙂
When you feel down what do you do to bring yourself back up?
Any words of advice for me?
What are your plans for this coming weekend?