Hey my lovely readers,
I’m so sorry I disappeared for so long! I have been a mixture of majorly busy, completely exhausted and in pain so just haven’t had the energy or the time to blog. I came back from uni on Friday evening and then for the last three days I’ve been at my singing course from 10am till 5.30pm so suffice to say I don’t really feel like I’m on holiday yet.
I was quite apprehensive about the course, usually I love it – I adore singing after all, but I was worried that I wouldn’t manage. I sort of did, bar a couple of little naps on the first two days, but it did bring to the forefront a lot of the difficult emotions I’d been feeling towards my condition. It just showed me how ill I’ve become, and that I just can’t do what other people my age can do.
I think what I was most upset at is the fact that the pain I was feeling affected my voice, affected my singing.
Until now I think that, despite whatever it is that is wrong with me causing quite bad cognitive difficulties, I’ve been in some denial about it being anything more than just something that impacts my physically in a direct way. It impacts everything.
My singing has always been something I’ve been able to hold onto, unlike my dancing.
I guess, just like with everything else, I’ll have to adapt and find ways of making it easier.
Sorry this is a brief, photoless and a bit miserable, I’m really not feeling at my best right now! And thank you for all of the lovely comments I’ve been getting on my posts lately, it means a lot to have the support 🙂
So tell me, what’s going on in your life right now?
What did you get up to at the weekend?
Is anything exciting happening this week?